Cum

I love cum. In general, without to many reservations. In my mouth, on my skin, in my ass, pretty well what or where ever. Exception: I'm not overly fond of getting goo in my hair, or in my cunt. I'll assume my hair is self explanatory, but I'll explain the other. I don't really like cum in my cunt, I can't keep it all in, I can't get it all out, it'll decide to squish itself out at apparently random times when I don't want to deal with it, etc. Sometimes that's awesome, but overall, just kinda eww to me, though I'm more than willing to deal with it.

A lot of love of gooey male stuff. I enjoy the taste, the feel on my skin. It's fun, and awesome, and in a way, a pretty accurate sign of a job well done.

As usual, that is leading in to something. Master has always wanted to be able, or have a girl able, to have him far enough down her throat that there was no option besides it going down. No option to swallow, just cum down the throat. So I have been spending the past couple months working on getting Master into my throat, and being able to keep him there for a decently long amount of time. I don't even think he actually realized exactly what I was doing, which is probably good. He'd probably have objected to being a lab rat for my little experiment.

Last week or so though, I decided I could probably do it. So I did, and yup, I can. He was excited, which is good. It was the point. He has thoroughly tested this ability since then, which is cool. I like knowing he finds a skill I made a point to acquire enjoyable/useful. Mind you, I'm not saying I can be completely comfortable actually deep throating or anything, I am saying I can manage short amounts of it, and have gotten decent control of gagging issues.

But this is weird. When he's in my mouth/throat I can still feel the swell and throb that means he is close to (or actually is) getting off. I can feel warm, but I don't get to taste or play with it. It's rather frustrating, honestly. I know that he's been pleased, I know that I did, in fact, get what I was after, but I do not get to do anything to acknowledge it, or satisfy my urge for finality, I guess. It's kind of a be careful what you ask for deal, I guess. I very much enjoy having him down that far, even when he gets off. I like knowing he does this because he wants to. But it just makes me want more. Kind of the same situation I face if I get off with a toy in me. It just makes me want 'real' sex more than I did.  And weirdly enough, NONE of that is an actual complaint.

Very frustrating, but god damn, I'm loving it, though I reallllyyyy want cum ON me again here before long ^.~