FINALLY

I have been bugging Master since we got together, before any Master/slave relationship, to please, please, PLEASE just go have sex with someone he's not involved with.

He, in theory, understands that sex isn't that big a deal in my opinion. That it's just an act, a fun thing, a pass the time distraction. That while it can be special, and done with love, it doesn't have to be. He even agrees that he has no actual objection and would like to be with someone else, with or without me. In fact, at one point I agreed to stay during a particularly rough patch because he said he'd try to find someone, because it would make me feel better.

HE FINALLY DID IT.

Seven years of bugging him. Seven years of reassurance every time it comes up that sex is fine, its all the emotional sticky that he tends to attach that I worry about. That if he's safe about it, I am fine, so long as I'm informed of the extent of involvement. Sometimes it's been mentioned he might be interested in some type of other relationship with another woman, which scares me, but I am okay with him trying, so long as if I start to freak he's still there for me (my head issues scare me, I'm really not sure how I would do if Master had an actual relationship with anyone else. I'm fragile on some things, and that's one that I can see causing problems that hasn't actually been tested).

So, he slept with someone today. I really have no opinion except that he's making it more awkward than it should be, which is amusing to me, so I've poked him on it some. Yes yes, bad me. But he's so cute! (Please don't hurt me to much later, Master, you really are very cute, and I am suppressing a LOT of my mirth and evil ideas, I promise!)

Maybe tomorrow or later this week while Master is at work I'll go further into my logic and reasoning and all that awesome crap for WHY it was important to me, but right now, I just want to blabber at someone that this finally happened, and it's not exactly the kind of thing a girl can call her mom about.