Trouble

I got myself into trouble yesterday. Like intentionally.

And I honestly have no idea why.

I know what I did, but let's leave it at setting up a conversation via IM and leaving it where Master would find it.

The kicker on this is, I really have no clue as to why it seemed like the right idea, or a good one. I'm not just saying that to make myself out to be lost or confused, I just don't. I probably would have upset him less if I had a reason, like being able to say 'Hey, I'm feeling neglected,' or 'I need to talk to you about something, and don't know how to bring it up without starting a fight, so I just made sure there'd  be one to start with.' I mean...Yeah, both of those would have been bad reasons, but at least reasons, and things that could be understood. A general feeling of discontent, and unease, and wanting to see what'd happen? Those aren't really reasons, ya know? And honestly, those really don't play in at all, or at least not that much. They're there, but more as an after-effect after the deed was done.

Blergh.

Yup. I'm a mess.

My head also says I don't wanna do that again, though, so hey, one good side effect of my own stupidity, right?